I Feel The Heavy Breath On My Liverpool's Blanket..
Once In A While,My Heart Still Hurts..
Cik Nah Said It's The Air That's Stinging My Heart Every Now & Then..Painful.
& I Still Do Get 'Crushed' Whenever I'm Trying To Sleep.






Ya Allah, Protect Me.

*pssst* dont stop the music..listen to it while reading this :)

I happened to read ur blog.
and now i understand roughly what ure going through.
first and foremost, im sorry to hear it.know it.read it.
maybe i dont deserve to know.
i mean, who am i right?
hahah..foreigner out of ur problems..
but maybe, God wants me to know.
maybe i could help. but i know im just a powerless human being just like all of us without Allah.
& i hope i can borrow as much power as possible...just to help u thru it.
someone we know says, shes running out of words to encourage you..
but i tell you, she wont run out of energy to support you..we all wont.
like i said again, God brings us to you. and we wont disappoint you.
& we're expecting you not to disappoint urself ....is that alright?

I hate it.... seeing ppl who are dear to me being very upset..for days & days..
i know its hard to get over it & solve it..
im not asking u to quickly end it.cos its impossible..
but im telling you that im by ur side.forever (even if you dont need me,im still gonna be a pest,just to make sure u are alright)
i will do what i can,with all my heart & my strengths to put u back into one piece. with an elephant glue.stronger than ever.

all i ask of you is..PATIENCE.
Allah works in mysterious ways... it might seem like it's destroying our life.. but just to remind you,He's not...

"And certainly, We shall test you with something of fear, hunger, loss of wealth, lives and fruits, but give glad tidings to As-Sabirun (the patient)". (2:155)

"Only those who are patient shall receive their reward in full, without reckoning.'' (39:10)

honestly, i too was down. and wanted to cry as well after knowing bout this. work just now wasnt too good either as i kept thinking bout it. i was thinking of how i want to help you. yes,i want to help. i really do. for you. your mum. your family. after all, she is one of my best teachers. :) but of course im not going to her and advise/encourage..bla bla.. ure the main source,so i'll go to you. and you, revive the spirit of your family. you may be young. but in there,i know..lies a very strong person character to be unleashed.

"And verily, whosoever shows patience and forgives, that would truly be from the things recommended by Allah.'' (42:43)

and keep this in mind, just being patient alone wont help. ive told u what to do right? how to be calm..how to think positive etc.. always keep in mind that whatever negative things that ure thinking of right now, is the work of the devil. BUT the devil is only working well because of the permission from Allah swt. if you passed His (Allah's) trial, u get ur reward. simple as that. but HOW u do it, is a different thing. thats harder. for now. practice. everything is about practice.

O you who believe! seek assistance through patience and prayer; surely Allah is with the patient. (2:153)

i know im not that of a good person as well. im dirty. im stupid. im a disaster. im a cheat. im a hypocrite. & simply say, im the devil u dont wanna meet.know.talk to.

whatever i do now, even if the deeds are as high as the mountains, i dont think i deserve Allah's forgiveness still.....hmmm...but we know How merciful Allah swt is..& im glad that He is..but im still not sure if he has forgiven me for what ive done in the past or not. i mean, if humans were to know..i can bet you,not many will forgive me. not many will acknowledge me as they would before. & all that i have left is Allah..and the teachings of Muhammad s.a.w.

i came from Him (Allah)..and i surely will return to Him. i will do my best. to be a better person every single day. and i will do my best to keep YOU on the safe road. i will strive for Islam. for Muslims like you. and for all that is good.

"And surely, We shall try you till We test those who strive hard (for the Cause of Allah) and As-Sabirun (the patient)'' (47:31)

I promise.
I will not make u lose.
I will not make u lost.
I will not make u be the person who is in loss.
InsyaAllah.

Verily, man is in loss, except those who believe and do good deeds and encourage one another towards truth and encourage one another towards patience. (104:2-3)

This is Jihad For You. Win It.
ive sent u the sms right? (bout Jihad)
if not..do ask from me.. heh.

so i guess ive spoken what i should spoke.
its all in ur hands now.
we'll be behind you.
i will pray for you.
I Love You.
Allah Loves You More. Do It For Us. (y)

Never Lose Faith In God & Yourself.

Out Of All of My Friends & Families, You're One Of Them Who Really Appreciate Me. I Thank You For That. Im Not Gonna Let You Down Either.

*by now,the song on my blog should've stopped,or maybe not =] *
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Keep the lyrics in your head.wherever u are,in whatever situation...and u will not forget God.

When you feel all alone in this world
And there’s nobody to count your tears
Just remember, no matter where you are
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you're carrying a monster load
And you wonder how far you can go
With every step on that road that you take
Allah knows
Allah knows

CHORUS
No matter what, inside or out
There’s one thing of which there’s no doubt
Allah knows
Allah knows
And whatever lies in the heavens and the earth
Every star in this whole universe
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you find that special someone
Feel your whole life has barely begun
You can walk on the moon, shout it to everyone
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you gaze with love in your eyes
Catch a glimpse of paradise
And you see your child take the first breath of life
Allah knows
Allah knows

CHORUS

When you lose someone close to your heart
See your whole world fall apart
And you try to go on but it seems so hard
Allah knows
Allah knows

You see we all have a path to choose
Through the valleys and hills we go
With the ups and the downs, never fret never frown
Allah knows
Allah knows

CHORUS (x2)

BRIDGE:
Every grain of sand,
In every desert land, He knows.
Every shade of palm,
Every closed hand, He knows.
Every sparkling tear,
On every eyelash, He knows.
Every thought I have,
And every word I share, He knows.
Allah knows.

I Guess I'm Back..
& I Hope For A Very Long Time.
I.WANT.TO.CHANGE.
For My Friends,Families & Especially God.
Looking Around Me,Truly Is Hurtful.

Everyone knows IT'S NEAR...but what do they do? nothing at all.
more ignorant. stronger hypocrite than before..
should i sigh? or shud i hold on to this hadith??

Allah's Apostle said, "If Allah wants to do good to somebody, He afflicts him with trials."

for now, i'll do my best to hold on to it.

"A time will come when people will run away from religious men in the same manner as they would run away from a dead donkey." [Riyad-un-Nasikhin: P356]

reading this, hurt me as well..why oh why?
its literally happening. my era. NOW.

Doomsday will not come until a man satisfies his sexual need with another man and a woman satisfies her sexual need with another woman. [Hatib]

even muslim ppl are doing this..no,dont tell me its modern thinking..
Quran never change.
we dont have new testaments anymore...so why should we?
we're globalised tooo much..westernized wayyyy too much..
brainwashed our own thinkings..
who's to blame?
i'll say ourselves for not being strong enough..